Tomorrow is Father's Day

Ahhh - tomorrow is Father's Day. A day I might add, I have not been looking forward to. You see this is the first year that I wil not have my Dad here to celebrate with. I didn't think it would be so hard. But as the day has approached I have found myself getting very sad.

You see I lost both of my parents within a 13 month period. My Mom died in September 2006 after a very brief battle with cancer. Then my Dad died from some sort of a heart incident, 13 months later. I could say he died of a broken heart. He was never quite the same after my Mom died.

The one issue I have is that we knew my Mom was dying, we were told as much. Therefore we made sure to spend as much time with her as we possibly could. We all spent time saying good-bye. She left knowing exactly how much we all cared.

My Dad was much more of a surprise, we did not have the same benefit of letting him know. Though I know in my heart he knew, I still wish I had one last chance to tell him. One last chance to thank him. It is a place in my heart that will never be fulfilled.

So my message to you all on this Father's Day - If your Dad is still here, give him a hug and kiss, and let him know how much you love him. You never know when it might be the last chance you get. This picture was taken 2 days before he was hospitalized. We, my sibling's and I, an Aunt and cousin, and all of our children, walked for the Hospice of the North Shore program. This was done in honor of my Mother, and in thanks to the people who took such good care of her. We raised about $5000.00. It was a great day, and in that way I think of it as my Father's swan song. We were all there, with him, honoring my Mom. This was the last time that many of us talked to my Dad and he could respond to us. Almost 3 weeks later, he would die after spending 2 1/2 weeks in a non-responsive state. I miss him terribly.

OK - I had to get that off my chest. It does help to write my feelings here. I hope I did not depress anyone too much.

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